Re-defining Motherhood
Let me ask you a few questions...
What kind of mom are you? Are you trying to figure it out? Do you hesitate because of judgements from others? Do you hold back because of family whispers? Do you make decisions out of guilt? Are you just confused by it all?
We all have our own unique way of being a mom. We need to define what it means to us. We can chose to experience motherhood and enjoy our children the way that is best for us.
I have lived in fear of judgement most of my life. Becoming a mother did not change that. I lived in fear of parenting like my parents. I lived in fear of what my family would think of my decisions. I feared friends judging me if their values didn't align with mine. Just a few months ago- there I was crying on the floor confused more than ever about what motherhood means to me.
I am not that mom. I am not the mom that can get on the floor and play with her kids or go outside to play tag. I am not the patient mom. I am not the do-it-all mom. I am not the willing to sacrifice it all mom. I am not the my kids come first mom.
If you are that mom, that is awesome! I give you so much cred. I have wished to be something that I am not for a long time. Don't get me wrong, I will do things with my children that I do not always enjoy because that is just what we do.. I use to carry heavy guilt around for that. I thought it meant I was a bad mother or I didn't really want kids. I have learned now that is untrue. We don't all need to be the same nor judge each other because someone does it differently than us. The fear of avoiding judgement becomes overwhelming and isolating. You do you girl!
If you want to have the house clean before your partner comes home, do it if it makes you happy. If you want to play pirates at sea because it makes you happy, do it. If your a stay at home mom that sends your kids to daycare so you can take care of yourself, do it. If you want to build an empire, do it. If you want to travel without kids, do it. Whatever brings you happiness and downright makes you feel good. In the eyes of our children, we are perfectly imperfect.
I no longer chose to be something I feel I have too. I have the power to be great. However I chose my path to greatness- is my choice alone (and sometimes my husband's). How I want to experience my children is up to me. And this....truly sets me free. I hope you find freedom in your life too<3
Love,
Katelyn
